仁慈或残忍

你给了我幻想的空间，却同时扼杀了我的想象能力

我在呼吸着。

我知道， 我感觉到。

我是在一口一大口地呼吸着。头皮手脚发着麻， 有点冰冷, 有点晕昏。如果面前有一面镜子的话， 镜里的我应该是脸色苍白，颤抖着。

太难受了，这样的感觉， it's killing me....

Suddenly i feel so hurt n being like a fool. U told me that u r not ready for a new relationship. I take it as truth. In fact tat was just an excuse for u to stop our relationship. Da real truth is tat u have no feeling on me at all n (now) u r dating someone. I'm not blaming on u, but juz want to let u know that i really feel hurt, really!!! U know how's da feeling of being cheated by someone that u really like n care?

I am sorry that you are hurt. But I can swear that I never cheat on you, I gave us a chance and I discontinue the relationship for 2 reasons. One I wasn't ready. Two I find that we might not be suitable for each other. In between there is no third party nor was i seeing anyone, If you think I cheated on you, there is nothing more that i can say because i know very well I did not and my decision is for the good of us.

I dun want to argue with you, that's not the point. But what you have told me when we were together were that you were happy to be together with me, i'm the right person to be your partner. Yes, you are not ready yet, but that give me a fake hope to believe that we still have chance to be together. I know you dun intend to do so to give me a fake hope. But i just feel cheated n da feeling of finding out dis truth is killing me, i really feel bad, dis is the worst feeling i ever had!! It's so sucks!!!! Tat's my own problem, nothing wrong wif you, i put myself in da relationship too deeply, im just too serious n focus. But i just dun like this feeling. It's killing me. Damn ....

又被爱伤了一回？

不。 打从那天你告诉我你还没准备开始一段新感情时， 我心里已有个谱，我不是你要的人。 只是后来你说的话，又给了我新（假）的希望。你说你和我在一起很开心

如果当初你一早告诉我，我们不适合在一起的话， 我会很伤心， 那是理所当然的， 可是之后我肯定会好过一点。

可是你却太仁慈了， 你怕伤害了我（还是你想把我当后备？）， 所以你没有告诉我事实的真相--你对我没有真正的感觉， 只是我对你的好让你产生了幻想。

我真的不喜欢被欺骗的感觉， 也不喜欢希望落空的感觉。 你给了我幻想的空间，却同时扼杀了我的想象能力。

如果你真的希望我好过一点， 那就隐瞒我一辈子吧！ 不能的话， 就干脆让我一早就知道真相， 总好过日后让我自己找出答案。

当初你应该残忍地对我好一些， 一次的伤得遍体鳞伤， 总好过慢慢地折腾着我， 给我希望， 然后又掠夺我的期待。